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And i was doing so well, i hardly felt a thing but then the room went fuzzy and i started sweating (lots-yuk) and felt sick and dizzy and confused and like i wanted to cry.
But then it was over and the nurse was lovely and tim was nice and then we went to see SB and mat gave me cake (which was yummy and i now want more!) so it was ok.

Off to collect Claire now as she needs cheering up!

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Another apology for absence, this time Tim lost his job and i've been ill and also i'm crap and read but don't post alot.

So yeah, Tim got made redundant, not correctly i might add, they didn't give him any written notice or interview him when they interviewed the rest of the lads, basically he was the last one in so the first one out...woohoo!

And i've had a week off work with the worse throat infection i have ever had in my life, i have never felt pain like it, i couldn't even swallow painkillers, soluble or otherwise.And i have to go and get my blood stolen so they can test it tomorrow.

Anyway whinge over, to try and stay optimistic we have been looking for future options,i want to study to be a music therapist, and there are 3 good courses, one in Cardiff at the Royal Welsh, another at the University of West England (Bristol) and another in Edinburgh. all 3 cities have great courses on offer for Tim (he wants to be an architect or maybe a teacher of woodwork or maybe a site manager there are lots of options there).

Only things making me hesitate, i have such good friends round here, 2 very good friends from uni, SB and Matgb, someone Tim used to work with.Also, we would be closer to Tim's brother and sister, but further away from my parents and grandparents...

So i would like your opinions on the cities mentioned, the uni's if you have any knowledge, and general advice please if you wouldn't mind?

I c ommented on SB's post and this what i got back. Here are my elaborations.


Music.
Cats.
Straightening your hair.
LARP, sorry, Re-enactment.
Enormous boobies.

 

Music

I started my musical life by crawling on to a piano stool at the age of 2 and promptly falling off and hitting my head on the keys. Instead of crying like a normal child i proceded to hit the keys into what vaguely resembles the music of John Cage (not a big fan).

I then learnt the recorder, and then the violin and the viola. We found that with the viola, the more i practiced the worse i got, so i just sight read everything! I began singing in choirs at 6 and began solo lessons at 11. I was the youngest person to join Oldham Youth Choir at the age of 11, but was always overlooked for solos as i was just "little Imogen that has always been here". One of the best moments of my musical career was when i stood up and sung in my last concert ever with the choir, and knocked all their socks off, i was given a standing ovation by the other choir members and teachers, but it was the look on their faces when i opened my mouth that gave me such a buzz!

I have a music degree. but i wish that i'd not bothered in a way. Dont get me wrong i met some amazing people but it highlighted for me the incredible corruptness of the music business.

Cats

I have had cats since i was 8. My first 2 were called Minky, a British short hair that looks like a polar bear and Tabitha, a silver tabby with beautiful yellow eyes.They were lovely, if a little spoiled. Then we got Rupert who was my baby, her was a Burman. Big blue eyes and lots of white fluff. He was pretty grumpy with everyone else but he used to let me cuddle him like a baby and put him in dolls clothes. Then came Penny a rescue torty who was the "runt of the litter". Shes enormous, and so soft!

Then there was Tigger, a ginger tabby with big green eyes.She was really funny as a kitten, and looks like Puss in Boots. And then Spike, another Burman, also beautiful but he didnt have Ruperts patience.

And now i have 2 of my own. Tilly is a torty who has a very musical purr...she likes to sing with me too! And Mia who is species confused, sometimes shes a duck and others shes a dog.But never a cat. And she has an addiction to Chlorine.

Straightening my hair

 Its just something i do. I like it curly but when its straight i feel more in control, which as you all know is very important to me!

Re-enactment

17th century English Civil War to be precise! Though its really more Tim's thing than mine. I just like the camping, the beer and the corset.We got betrothed at Leeds Castle at an event and it was beautiful, im lucky to have met the amazing people at ECWS, although right now things are getting far too political and bitchy, so were taking a step back and hoping things get better soon.

Enormous boobies

I love my boobs. I think they have a nice shape and they're comfy. I got my first bra when i was about 7 or 8. By the time i went to high school i was a 32 C, by year 9 a 32 E and just kept growing. I am now a 34 JJ. I do hope they dont grow anymore though, im struggling to by bras...

Sorry im not more exciting, would be interested to know if anyone associates anything else with me though?Remember if you comment i will list 5 things i associate with you too!



 

Inspired by SB's 8 for '08 i thought i'd make my own list of hopes and aims for 2009.

1)Lose weight

2)To get back into music, practice my singing and develop my voice, learn a few new pieces on the piano.

3)To read more-time to turn off the telly and use my brain!

4)To be a better girlfriend, daughter, grandaughter and friend.

5)To live in a house for more than 9 months.

6)To go on holiday, a proper one, with sun.

7)To spend more time with family

8)To learn about politics

9)To stop being so trusting and forgiving. Time to reawaken my inner bitch i think, getting a little sick of that "just punched in the stomach" feeling of disappointement.
 

Ok so the landlord has come back to us saying they will let us move out with our deposit as long as (get this) the house is in a perfect condition and we get all the carpets cleaned etc. No offence but the carpets are full  mold because of your fucking house why should i have to pay to clean it for you?? Surely the amount iv cleaning iv already done just to keep the house barely livable in is enough???

And she apparantly is not going to reinburse us for our damaged property. My response to this was "ok love we'll be seeing you in court".


Arghhhhh so very angry. and upset. I loved this house, and when its not moldy and damp its beautiful. Tim and i hoped to be here for a few years, to be settled and happy. It seems like thats never going to happen no matter where we live.

Will we ever be happy?

I have just watched Saving Africa's Witch Children on Channel 4. Now beleive me i am aware you can't beleive everything you see on t.v and i have the greatest respect for other cultures and beleifs but this is just WRONG!!!

Children as young as 3 months old are being convicted for being witches. Blamed for everything from illness to the lack of food to the death of a chicken.

These children are tortured by pastors, thats right "Men and women of God" to confess for their "sins". One young girl had a 3 inch nail driven into her skull to make her confess.

A charity called Stepping Stones, has been set up by a British man. It provides these children with a safe location to go to school and live. Their director, gary, travels out to Nigera to try and reunite the children with their families, and failing that, takes them back to stepping stones to live a safe life.

Stepping stone have managed to get a protection act passed for children, but as there are very few steps being made to reinforce it, the situation is little better.

On the programme was a sweet little girl named Mary, she had been pushed out of her village by her family, condemned as a witch. At 5 years old.She was living in a shack, constantly being threatened with death, rape and violence. How any people can look into an innocent childs eyes and blame them for all that is wrong in their world is beyond me (although i know it does happen, all over the world).

I just wanted to make you aware of this show. As you may be aware it takes alot for me to come out and shout openly about something i don't agree with but i needed to rant. i hate feeling so useless. Really puts my problems into perspective.

BB
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Hello!

Again, sorry it's been so long, this time i actually have a pretty good reason!But i have been keeping up with your journals, just been in more of a reading mood than a writing one. But now i need your advice...


As some of you (SB and Matgb) will know, Tim and i are having problems with the house.Big patches of green mold like problems, and mouldy handbags and shoes (*sob*), not to mention the endless coughs, colds and sniffles that come with living in a damp house. And if im being honest i think living in a fish tank would be less damp than this.

The letting agent have had some insulation put in but the list of other things that need doing (Windows need re-sealing, house needs damp proofing, dehumidifer needs to be brought in,all soft furnishing need cleaning to get the mould out etc) seems to be getting put off from one day to the next. I called the letting agent yesterday (rent day) to say that we are not happy with the fact that we are paying for this shit hole (£425 a month) when lets face it, its horrible. Also wanted to know who was going to pay or the running of the dehumiifier, the cost of repairing/replacing our stuff and getting the soft furnishings cleaned.Letting agent got very nasty and was basically implying that WE would have to fork out the costs for these things.

Now i don't personally think thats fair.But i would be interested in your comments on that point.

So now we face a decision, do we stay here and hope it gets better?Or do we cut our loses and move somewhere else in the local area?Or do we take the big step of leaving yorkshire and starting again somewhere new?And what rights do we have?I'm at a complete loss as to what to do.

Any advice would be very much appreciated. I'm at breaking point here.

*sigh*

BB
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Beatrice "Against my will, i am sent to bid you, come in to dinner"
Benedick "Fair Beatrice, i thank you for thy pains"
Beatrice "I took no more pains for those thanks than you take pains to thank me, if it had been painful, i would not have come"
Benedick "You take pleasure then in the message?"
Beatrice "Indeed. As much pleasure as you may take upon a knife's point"

Messenger "He has done a good service, and a good soldier too lady"
Beatrice "And a good soldier too lady?But what is he to a lord?"
Messenger "A lord to a lord.A man to a man stuffed with most honorable virtues"
Beatrice "It is so indeed, he is no less than a stuffed man"

Better SB?

XXX

When you see this, quote Shakespeare in your journal.


From my fav Shakespeare play, "Much ado aboout nothing"


"He that hath a beard is more than a youth.And he that hath no beard is less than a man. And he that is more than a youth is not for me. And he that is less than a man...I am not for him."

Enjoy!
 

Hello, I'm sorry i'm not being a very good LJ friend at the min, i've not logged on for ages!So a big HELLO to you all and an even bigger apology SORRY!!But im here and i will check in as often as i can.

As SB knows i've not been too well, another chest infection.And im very tired at the min and have no idea why, get home from work and just want to sleep, can't even be bothered cleaning (see SB,Matgb i told you i was ill!)

I met up with my friend who is in the army last week. He's called Tom. I'm not exactly sure what he does but i know it scares me. He opened up a little to me about the things he'd seen and how he feels about it all, which suprised me as i havent seen him in 5 years.He flew back out to Iraq last week and i'm very worried about him as you can imagine.

So i've just watched the Tudors. I cried lots.Even though i knew it was coming. I can't help liking Anne Boleyn, she's my fav wife!(Of henry the 8th that is).

So how are you all? Having fun?

I promise i will write a longer post when im not dozing off,i need my energy back!Any suggestions?

XXX

First i need to apologise for not posting for ages. New job started and took up alot of time. Also problems in relationship and money worries and lots of other factors have kept me from having much interesting to write. But i have been checking in every now and again to make sure you're all ok. But i am sorry.

And now i need to vent. Had a poo day at work everyone seemed to be in a shit mood and taking it out on each other, the system crashed twice and i seemed to get every difficult claim there was coming through. Tim and i are in limbo at the min, i feel like i need space but dont want to hurt him,and can't think of a way out of it. Worked all weekend at the pub too so rather tired. Thank goodness thats it and i have my weekends back now.

Why is it that whenever you're feeling down and easily manipulated some fit bloke comes along shows an interest and all of a sudden you feel like hes the best thing since sliced bread?Even when you know hes a player and an arse and he's only using you because he knows he has you hooked?Why is it that even though you know all of this in your head, you still hope that he'll fall for you because you know that in every other way (apart from him being an arse and a player) you are a good match.

The arse in question has nothing to do with the reason i'm feeling trapped by my relationship with tim though. I'm 21 and feel like im 40. I just want to be single for a while if that makes any sense?I've not been single since i was 15. Am i being selfish in wanting to feel like a individual and not a part of a pair for a while?

Anyway thats pretty much whats in my head at the min. Sorry im moaning i just needed somewhere to vent. Going to go cry now and then drink and smoke alot.Probably won't help but its worth a go.

Oh and a big hello to Moodie-Hello!!! and a thank you to Halonic-you've been a star.

I promise i'll be back soon and in a better state of mind.

BB
XX



 

I have internet. I will now be reading and posting again.I've started my new job, moved house and appear to be having something of a life crisis.But suprisingly im in an amazing mood and have been for the past 4 days.Good times!

Hope you're all well.
BB
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Just to say i am still alive i just have no internet and am having to steal SB's!At the min i am sat with Snapesbabe and Shrublette catching up on emails.I will hopefully have my own connection by the end of next week. Hope you're all well!

Love BB.

P.S Shrub says "HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

We move house today!!!Wooooooo!!!Will be closer to SB and Mattgb and the shrub and can bug them with so much less effort!!!Have also received confirmation on my new job, i start on the 25th!!!I'm excited can't you tell!!!

Sorry i haven't posted in a while its been a little mad here.We move house in 2 days and we've been short staffed at work so i've been covering shifts instead of packing. Also, i'm a major worrier (as some of you probably already know) and so haven't had a decent nights sleep in about 2 weeks, which is something i can't really cope with. Like i said, i'd be stressing if i had the energy but i don't!

A little annoyed too with the fact that because of staff shortages i'm having to give up my holiday on sunday, which is the day after my birthday. I was looking foward to the time to destress with Tim. I mean for gods sake im working every other bloody day, including next wednesday when i graduate and then rush to work! What makes it worse is that i know i'm going to get ill because i'm doing too much. The only plus side is that after these 2 weeks il have covered next months rent and should, if all things work out right, be able to quit my job at the pub.

Anyway monaing rant is over. I'm off to pack boxes!

BB
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We move house next thursday and i've just started packing.And i've run out of boxes.Any tips on making moving house easy and where to get boxes from??

"The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed."
1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Strike out the books you have no intention of ever reading, or were forced to read at school and hated.
5) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read 6 and force books upon them ;-)"



1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 The Harry Potter Series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible (enough of it anyway)
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy(?)
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller(?)
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy(?)
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez(?)
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving(?)
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins(?)
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons(?)
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth(?)
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon(?)
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley(?)
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez(?)
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt(?)
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola(?)
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell(?)
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert(?)
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry(?)
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad(?)
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery(?)
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks(?)
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole(?)
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute(?)
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

35 out of 100 isn't very good is it?Though i have yet to turn 21,hopefully plenty of time left to read many books!

(?) shows my ignorance-i've not heard of or know anything about these books and therefore have not made a decision either way on them.

We gots the house!We gots the house!Wooooooo!*Jumps around happily*.

Yey will have SB and Matgb and Shrublette as neighbours!We move on the 11th of July which is unfortunately the day before my 21st and a week before i start my new job. but its ok coz it means were not wasting money by leaving here too early,especially when all the rent has been paid up til the 20th July.It gives us a week crosover.

Wooo we gots the house!!!

I may have a house!!!Fingers crossed!!!

So Tim and I have a plan.Well i do.

 My plan is this:Tim and i get a house together this year (mainly because we can't afford a seperate place) and really work on our relationship.Then if all works out il do a pgce locally and Tim can do what he wants, il support him in whatever he wants to do.SB made a good comment that we are too serious, which is true and is what causes me to run screaming for the hills every now and again. I'm selfish and spoilt and want to have my cake and to eat it too (don't really understand that phrase when i think about it).

Tim's put up with alot from me and i from him.And 80% of the time we're both really happy. We've learnt to let the little things go ( he hates that i squeeze the toothpaste in the middle of the tube instead of the end, i can't understand why he dumps his clothes on the floor next to his wardrobe). The issues are the big differences in character. I have always been ambitious.I've spent my whole life working of improving a talent and not giving up or taking the easy route. Tim isn't like that. He doesn't like his job but won't do anything about it. He wants to be a contract manager or similar but won't do the training he needs to do. I can't understand why he doesn't want to do it, if it will make him happy in the long run. Some people have pointed out that maybe hes scared of failing which i can understand but everyone has that fear and there is only so much you can do to support and motivate someone before you begin to feel like your banging your head against a brick wall.

Anyway maybe everything will be fine.Maybe not.Atleast this way i know that i've really tried and won't regret anything. 

On a totally random topic, im getting a filling tomorrow and im scared!!!!

Hope you are all well!!